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よろしくお願いします。=)

really in need of it.

i`ll be away from writing for quite sometime.
maybe a week, maybe a month, could be a few months.

till everything settle down.
this coming 4 months will be the most crucial,
and maybe the hardest time of my life.
praying that I`ll get over it.
2009 is coming.
hoping for a better year ahead,
for me, for everyone.
my family, friends and anyone who knows me,
forgive me for everything I did wrong.
wish me luck.

It has been a while since my last post.lots of things happened during the past one month.some were happy ones, some were not.actually I was thinking of writing about my Hari Raya celebration that day but I was too busy that i didn`t even have time to switch on my laptop.2 weeks after raya, I finally had my free time so I decided to have my raya post written.But, I dunno why, maybe it was my bad luck, I couldn`t open the files in my hard disk.I tried a few times to open, even try asking my friends to help, but to no avail.I think the files corrupted.Only god knows how sad I was at that time.Kalau file tu nak corrupt, x kisah sbnrnya, tp yg kisah tu dgn file2 gambar sekali sume corrupt!abis sume gambar yg ade kat dlm hard disk tu.Xder sebijik pun lagi yg tinggal.Sume tu gambar2 dari mula2 sampai kat Jepun dulu sampai raya aritu.Waaaaa!!!!!Sedih sangat2..

Mula2 tu memang sedih giler2, tp dh bbrp hr lps tu dh redha dh.Anggap je la sume nye takdir.Anggap je ade hikmah bnde tu jadik.Maybe it was a sign from Allah for me to start a new life after something that happened a few days before that.Maybe.We don`t know what Allah plans for us.Hope that life after this will be better and happier.Hope so.InsyaAllah..

Last week I went for a programming contest for 4 days in Fukushima.Had a lot of fun!I`ll post something about that later, after I got all the photos from my lecturer.In 3 days time, my college will be having the yearly held Kosen Sai(College Festival) just like the one last year.Its gonna be an unofficial a week holiday for us!=)This year me and my other foreign student friends are going to have a stall during 2 days of the festival.Wanna know what are we gonna sell?Wait for the post on the festival later k.X leh bagitau awal2.X best.hehe..X sbr ni berfestival.Harap2 urikire(売り切れ)(sold out) nanti.Nanti dapat la banyak sikit untung. ;P

Okay, till next time.I`ll update later bout the contest and festival.Have a nice day everybody!

Kosen Sai 08 official website -> here

" SLMT HRI RYA BG LG!BG LG MKN APA WKTU SUNGKIR?BLA BG LG PLG?BG LG, KMK SIK SBR BG LG PLG!BG LG, CPT LAH PLG! "

diz is the 3rd sms from her.how can i resist not to feel rindu and homesick??

you know, last night i got a sms from my family.i thought that it was from my father, but when i read through the whole text message, i knew that it was from my little sister.i didn`t believe myself at first, but yes, it is from my little sister.and you know how old she is?she`s almost seven years old.primary one this year.it was a simple message, asking how am i doing, what did i have for buka puasa etc..she also told me that she has learned how to perform solat.together with my 5 years old little brother.alhamdulillah..but, the part when she asked, "when r u coming home?", i really felt like crying.sedih coz i wont be coming home until at least for another one year.maybe more.that message really touched me.maybe it`s because that i`ve been really close with those two little sister and brother of mine.i dont really know why, maybe i`d been spending so much time taking care of them when they were smaller babies.maybe la.thus making them tend to be more close with me than my other siblings.huu..sori k lil sis.bang long wont be coming home this raya.if only could have holiday on dat day, i would certainly be coming home to celebrate raya with all of you.surely.but i couldn`t.dont really know what to say, but sabar la k?maybe next year, or the years after that, we can celebrate raya like we have had before.really miss being with u guys on hari raya.jgn nakal2 kat rumah, n make sure u n irfan help mum and dad with the preparations too, k?n also study elok2, dont malas2 belajar kat sekolah.and take good care of urself.love you n miss you so much...

here`s the real sms that i got.sorry it`s in bhs sarawak, but i think u can somehow understand it.please let go bout the baku words and ejaan.she`s juz almost 7 ok.

"apa khabar bang long?bang long sihat kah?bang long dah sungkir kah?bang long makan apa?bang long pulang hari apa?bang long kamik dan irfan dah pandai sembahyang.kamik dah pandai sembahyang subuh dan maghrib.irfan pulak dah pandai sembahyang maghrib jak.kamik dan irfan dah pandai puasa."

ari ni dh seminggu dah kita puasa.cepat je rasa masa berlalu.pejam celik dah 7 hari puasa.23hari je lagi nak raya.hehe..tahun ni bez la jgk puasa kat sini.dah ada teman nk berbuka, dan sahur.tahun lepas sorang2 je sahur, berbuka.kadang2 pilu jugak rasa.bersyukur sgt2 bdak2 junior aku ni pilih nak datang sini.dpt la kitorang sama2 masak untuk berbuka.n raya nanti tak la aku keseorangan.serius sedih gler raya sorang.aku bersyukur sgt2 tahun ni.alhamdulillah..

next week aku stat exam.hr khamis.exm 2 minggu.hopefully aku bleh skor kali ni.nak tampung balik lobang2 yg byk giler time mid sem ari tu.memang ade subjek yg memang rasa mustahil untuk aku skor.tp aku kena cuba gak.kalau tak cuba tak tahu kan?

oh ye, kalau korang perasan, aku sekarang dah tulis mende ni pakai bm kan?sori la aku menyimpang dari tujuan asal buat blog ni, nk improve balik english aku.tp kan , sbb dah lama sgt dudok kat sini, dh lama gler tak pakai english, english aku dah turun gler2.skrg kalau aku nk tulis dalam english, memang ambik masa lama gler ah.tu yang kadang2 sampai malas nak update.so, nk jimatkn masa, aku switch ke bm.tp, maybe ada time kalau aku ada masa aku akan still try tulis gak dlm english.susah nanti kalau2 english aku nanti hilang macam tu jer.

k la.nk stadi la plak.nanti leka2 nanti x stadi plak.wish me luck for my exam k!
salam..

hi!sorry to keep u guys(those who were witing for updates) waiting for quite some time.it has been 2 months since i last updated my page.lots of things happened during that 2 months, but its juz that i dont have the `mood` to write sumthg.i juz cant think of anythng to write.hehe..malas kot.sori again guys.hmm..oh ya, did i tell you about my final exam result?da one that i was so worried about that i studied so hard sampai demam.you know, i got quite good marks in almost all the papers and after the percentage of all subject were calculated, i passed the math paper which was the decider wether i can go back to malaysia or not,　though the mark was juz cukup2 mkn.ok la.alhamdulillah..and then, 2 days after i got to know my results, i was on my way back home!!yeay!i used cathay pacific to fly home.i can be considered lucky because i dont need to get to tokyo or osaka first to get home.i went back home from fukuoka airport, which is just about 40 minutes bus or train ride from place.though i had to stop over in hong kong for a night as there were no connecting flight available on the same day, i had fun wondering around hong kong city that night, taking some pictures and seeing hong kong people`s life.however i juz wondered in the area around hong kong train station as i was afraid of getting lost if i go sumwhere further than the area.plus, i was alone!and hong kong is also famous for its gangsters etc..but, it is already enough to say that i`d stepped my foot in hong kong.hehe..the last time i went back to malaysia, during last year`s summer, i had a stop over in taiwan.i also took the chance to wonder around taipei at that time and i got to go the famous places there including the taipei 101 tower.i was so lucky that i got to join the taipei city tour package provided by the airport for transit and stop over passengers and it was free of charge!hehe..

at home, i spent all the time with my my family.we had barbeque, picnic and jalan2 together.the best thing is that my parents were very nice that i got to eat everything that i want from satays, cakes, laksa sarawak, rojak and etc..thanks mum, dad!but the consequence, my weight was up almost 5kg in juz a month!that was sumthing ok!terkejut gila bila timbang aritu.xpe2.lps ni exercise byk2, kurgkn berat.hehe..ckp je tu, bkn ny buat pon.haha..time was moving really fast that i didn`t realize that my month long holiday was already over and i had to get back to japan.it was really sad separating with my family at the airport but for the sake of my study, aku gagahkan diriku masuk ke boarding hall and then into the plane waiting.huhu..i can still remember clearly the moment i waved to my family before getting into the plane.miss u guys so much.till we met again k!

when i got to japan, i was expecting that i would be homesick juz like the last time i went back.but this time it is different.when i got to my hostel, when i saw the two new junior from malaysia, the homesick feeling was gone.maybe because that i was very happy to know that i wont be alone again.juz being able to speak bahasa melayu with sumone here made me feel really close to home.haha..i really dont know how to describe how i feel, but what i can say is that i am very happy.now i have sumone to chat with, to play, to jln2 and to masak and makan sama2.hehe..ya, i now masak sendiri with those two junior.i dont eat at the hostel`s dining hall anymore cause its cheaper that way.furthermore, its more seronok masak and makan rame2.=)

this year i am in the 4th year of my study in this college and my second year in japan.this year i`ll start studying those mechanical engineering related stuff like fluid mechanics, dyamics, material, designing, processing etc and they are much tougher than the subjects i learnt last year.i am praying that would c do better this year in my studies as this year is a very important year for me.in about a year time i`ll be sitting for university entrance exam which will decide where and what will i do in university.and my exam results for this year would also be a factor to decide where i can go in the future.to achieve that, i have to change myself first, as now i have quite an easy-happy-go-lucky life which wont help me at all.hmm..dont know lah.also said things like that to myself but in the end, it still the same old me.hehe..oh no,no,no.this time i will change.i must believe in myself, right?he..tomorrow maybe i`ll be going to the `World Festival` in fukuoka.there will be stalls and cultural performance from countries around the world and i heard that there are malaysians too there.gonna take a lot of pictures tomorrow!k, till next time guys..

last night while looking through the mechanical drawing textbook for today`s paper, i started to feel that there`s sumthing wrong with me.i can`t concentrate on what i`m reading and looking at.my body also felt x selesa.i tried a few times to get rid of it by changing my seating posture, adjusting my shirt and pants here and there, even adjusting the table lamp`s light.but still, i felt uncomfortable.my body also felt tired and weak eventhough i`d slept about 2 hours in the afternoon(after the exam).then, i also felt uncomfortable in my throat.thinking that it was like a sign of fever coming, i closed my book, quickly went to sleep early only to hope that i won`t caught one.and ya, i took 2 panadols before sleeping.

geezz..since its exam`s week, i told myself to turn away from FJ, but its juz like there`s some special bond between us that i`d feel uneasy without her.you can say that i`m addicted to FJ, but i juz can`t help it.maybe it is because that she has been my most loyal companion since I came here.=)
today was my 2nd day of exam.i had only 1 paper today, english.maybe ok la kot but the questions this time were quite difficult than those previous ones.it wasn`t because of difficult words or sentences or even idioms, it was juz that, how should i say it,mm...if you dont know japanese, you cannnot answer lah.imagine if you were asked to translate english sentences in the paragraph into japanese.though ive been here almost a year, there are still limits in my japanese vocabulary.and there`s another question where they give a passage, for example about manners at dinner table.and the instruction for that question sounds like this:

Give the improper manners at dinner table in details.Please answer in Japanese.

there was about 4 questions were like this.the answer was of course written in the passage but, why they want the answer to be in japanese?i can`t understand that.why can`t juz write them in english?i think writing in them in english is a more appropriate way to teach student to understand english more, right?

but of all the the questions, the most ridiculous one is when they give you a passage like this:

To understand American culture, it is.................
.......to describe the same thing.Consider the sandwich.There is special kind of sandwich that is made with French bread.It contains a lot of meat, cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, and onions.To order this is New England, you must say "_____".To order the same in New York, you have to say "_____".To get it in Pennsylvannia, you would use the word "______".And if you you want to eat in New Orleans, you would have to say "po`boy".No matter what you say, though, it always tastes good.


and the ques. was: fill in the blanks with the appropriate words from below.
a. hoagy b. hero c. grinder

why i felt it was ridiculous is that it requires you to remember the passage learned in class in order to answer the question.(the ques. asked in the exam are all exactly the same as in the textbook used in class).i didn`t expect this kind of question would come out, so i was quite x puas hati when i saw this kind of questions.and did i tell you that all the instructions are in japanese?even the class is fully conducted in japanese!in class, i can say its lucky if you were asked to read a sentence or answer the questions by the teacher as it is maybe your only english sentence or word in two weeks!no wonder why japanese people cant improve their english.and that`s why there`s so few japanese who can speak english.(to anyone who is travelling to japan, i advice you to look for someone you know in japan, a friend for example, who can speak japanese to be with you during your travel.if not, you would have problems communicating with the locals here.especially for muslims, when it comes to searching for edible food.)

as for me right now, my english is deteriorating bit by bit.now i can`t speak english as fluent as before.i am not saying that my english was fluent, but it was better 2 or 3 years ago compare to now.and for essays, i don`t think that i can write them anymore.that`s why, for the sake of not losing my writing skill completely, i am writing my blog in english.so pliz juz ignore it whenever you spot any mistakes here k.actually i`m quite jealous with my friends going to uk, america, even those studying in malaysia coz i believe their english now is far far way better than me.but i dont regret my choice to study here.to me, i believe there`s reason in everything, or in a more familiar words, `ada hikmah di sebaliknya`.maybe i`m not gonna as good as my other friends in english, but i got the chance to learn a new language.maybe from my own view, i`d say that my friends are lucky, but maybe from my friends view, they`d say that i`m lucky.Allah is fair right?

hmm...its already 8.got to get myself to study now.tomorrow i got mechanical drawing and another english paper.yup, this english paper is juz like the one today, giving out questions exactly from the text book but this time, they won`t be any translation questions coz the lecturer is so baik.=)

k,gtg now.see you later..
wish me luck!!

know what?today i juz realized that i am having a new tooth!!
didn`t realize at all b4 this coz it didn`t hurt a bit, not like usual.Usually when new tooth is about to come out, we`ll have toothache or bengkak or sumthing like dat.
does diz mean...i`m getting older???